There are some calls which stay with you and not just the morning after.
I had the call most call takers dread, the distressed mother/father who has found their child unconcious. In my case I had the mother on the phone.
Initially she had only managed to blurt out the address and that her daughter was hanging before she put the phone down on me, now I feel guilty for getting irritated because at first I thought it was someone mucking about, but I at least persisted and called back, thankfully she answered and I explained that if she stayed on the line I could do my best to help while the ambulance was on the way.
The mother was boarder line hysterical, the type of call we don’t like because they simply can’t be controlled, but on explaining to her that she had already taken the first step to helping her daughter she started to calm down and within a minute she was an oasis of calm among the pandemonium in the background.
A neighbour had heard the commotion from next door and ran in to assist offering his first aid skills and started the process of CPR.
Wether I subconsciously needed to keep the mother on the phone to keep her away from the scene I don’t know, but I managed to convince her to stay with me to keep me updated as ‘it will help the ambulance crew as I pass all this information to them’ She was in short fantastic and the model of maternal virtue, she managed to keep the family dog under control, her 11 year old son who was there by saying he could watch his Doctor Who DVD as long as he helped keep the dog quite and all while giving me regular updates on the unfolding events.
Me, I was like the swan, graceful above water, but kicking away like a person possessed underwater in order to remain afloat. Even the mothers calmness while on the phone to me has me convinced everything would be ok.
I did make one mistake though, I stayed on the line while she went off to let the crew in. I should have put the phone down then, but I didn’t, she and the crew could be heard running up the stairs and then the sounds of her breaking down at the sight of the daughter is something you can’t forget, you don’t have to even be there to know what she saw. But I still had some belief that everything would turn out for the best, perhaps one of my rare optimstic moments, but then we all need them once in a while.
It wasn’t to be however, a short while later the girl was declared by the crew on the scene.
For me I will move on, I can it doesn’t directly affect me, but that family will never forget the events of that night and they will never truly move on. But they did what parents do from the moment they know they are expecting, they fought for her, they did everything they could, but there will always be the feeling from all of us that we could have perhaps done that little bit more.